The new parent who couldn't rest even when the baby slept
The baby slept. She didn't.
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A first-time mother whose nervous system stayed on watch even when the house was quiet.
Before
Hypervigilant by month three. Reading every breath through the monitor. Resentful, then guilty for being resentful. The pediatrician said the baby was fine. Her body didn't agree.
The turning point
The watchfulness was inherited — three generations of women who learned to never fully come down. Once her body knew it was allowed to rest, it did.
After
Sleeping when the baby sleeps. Present when she's awake. The chain stopped here.
"I didn't know my body was waiting for permission."
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